A Typical Saturday

I just give the poor boy more stress in his life. As always, I was still asleep when he came over. Then idiot, bought Macs. Already said how many times not to eat Mac. Then, as always watch movie on laptop. Life is seriously boring. But we just watch movie after movie.
Winnie the pooh.
Takers.
Pursuit of happyness.

Anyway the topic of school came up. And I stress him about taking a part time. Don't get how he say he can't cope with both work and school. When he is like one of those person who actually can. He is hardworking in his own way. He always put those important stuff first. Unlike me. Sleep early and responsible in his own way. Forever checking his email. Always stay in. Hardly go out when it's unneeded.
That seeing him with friends make me really happy. Knowing he is out having fun. Coz I hardly see him do that.
Recently had to hang out for company dinner and stuff. Told him not many people actually had the chance to dine with boss and client. Especially someone "new" in the company.

Then went to pp to eat. But it was so crowded. Brought up the topic bout guys. What if there is a guy.

Another stress. What if I'm bored.

Why do people always get into a relationship and think of the future. At this age, shouldn't it just be having fun. Seeing how everything will go and if everything will work out. Wouldn't it be bad counting on the fact that we will be forever together. But somehow in the near future something goes wrong and relationship has to end. It just break people heart. So at this age. Wouldn't it better to just take it one step at a time. Wishing for the best. But not really counting for the ring moment. Coz when it happens it happen. When we all are older and when we all are ready.

What if it just happen with another guy.

Favorite answer: no comment.

But surely if the time comes for it. Then there will be a lot on his mind. Or maybe nothing at all. Maybe he'll fight for me. Maybe he'll just let go.
Because in life you do not want to regret. Coz that feeling suck the most. Then you will be thinking of what-if.

So I ask myself.
Am I faithful?
I am lucky not to have to prove that. Coz I don't know if I am. And I don't want to promise anything I can't keep.
Will I run off?
Idk.
Do I love him?
Yes.
So will I cheat?
I said no. I will not.
But I don't know if I am faithful sih.
Haha, I am contradicting myself.

I don't know the future. But I do know I will not do something that will spoil us. And I do know that I am happy with the way things are now. I doubt that will change soon. But I am an easily bored person. So I guess I just have be caution.
Jut hope we will never find out huh.
Poor guy.

Ok. Time to study. Since there is no soccer.